baby fluffernutter

2008-11-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

Perhaps, I'm still here.

2008-11-06T17:27:00.002+08:00

You know you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Welcome back, my dearest.

2008-09-22T16:19:00.000+08:00

I wish.. You were still here with me.

2008-07-10T13:11:00.001+08:00

Till this very day, I still dream of you.
This just shows how much I've been thinking of you. And hoping you'll be back one day.

2008-06-10T02:28:00.002+08:00

Moved.

I'll never want to forget you.
I'll never allow myself to.

2008-04-11T00:15:00.003+08:00

In order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did and why you no longer need to feel it.
-The five people you meet in heaven

How meaningful.

2008-04-08T21:55:00.003+08:00

And I'm right.
You know and understand me the best.
You care for me the most.
Thank you so much.

Please give me a break.

2008-04-05T18:41:00.002+08:00

No one understands me.
But I don't even understand myself in the first place.

Seriously, what did I do to deserve all these? What did I do to you?
You don't know how it feels, you don't know what really happened, you don't even know anything.

I hate my complicated screwed up life.
I want to end it.

2008-04-02T20:38:00.002+08:00

There are 4 things that you cannot recover.
The stone, after the throw.
The word, after it's said.
The occasion, after the loss.
The time, after it's gone.

2008-03-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

Maybe I should just delete this blog and let go of all the memories of you and I.
And maybe I should just pretend everything is alright without you.
But maybe, the reason why I'm still here, is still you.

2008-03-22T16:31:00.002+08:00
When everything doesn't mean anything anymore.

first day

2008-03-20T20:14:00.003+08:00

Please be back, I'm waiting.
Right here,
where you first gave me your heart,
where I first left you.
I love you very much still, boy.
And I'll be loving you, only you.

2008-03-16T03:07:00.000+08:00
Me without you
Is like Sneakers without laces
Geeks without Braces
Asentencewithoutspaces

tomorrowwwwwww

2008-03-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

Aquarius

The Bottom Line
You have a unique power to change whatever you don't like -- you just need patience.
In Detail
You have a unique power to change whatever it is that you don't like about where you are in life right now. The only thing you have to realize is that the change you want can't come immediately. Slow and steady wins the race. Your impatience is natural, but it is keeping you from seeing some viable possibilities. Your effort and action can make the difference, so you had better be prepared to step up and state your case when you get your face time with the powers that be.

I MUST be patient.
Lord, let everything be in Your time. I know You've great plans for me.

Tomorrow is The Day.
I'm really scared. I don't know exactly how to describe how I feel, but it's making me very uneasy inside.
I'm so scared I'll screw it up. I'm so scared I'll say the wrong things. I'm so scared he'll not want to talk to me at all. I'm just so scared that.. Maybe I'll never get him back again.
I've been thinking so much about us. So much so that I can't sleep till 5 in the morning. And even if I do fall asleep, I get nightmares.
But maybe, seeing you with her is the worst nightmare I've ever had.

010105, it still means alot to me.

2008-03-12T22:10:00.002+08:00
Well, I'm back.
Update later.

At that moment, my world collapsed.

gg done

2008-03-10T01:15:00.004+08:00

I finished Gossip Girl. Like finally. Goodness.
Timothy Lee just doesn't have the time to pass the rest of the episodes to me, so thank God Ian told me about the website, if not, I'd still be at episode 6. Ha.

Alright, Wednesday's ladies night with the dancers.
Something to look forward to. Other than class chalet.
But that means it's 2 days to Friday.
And Friday is The Day.
Don't ask me about it. I'll tell you if I want to.

Hello to a broken world that has gone on without you.

gonna be away

2008-03-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

I'll be away for 3 days. Class chalet, that is.
Gonna bring my darling (also known as laptop) along. Whatever it is for.
Plans for BBQ, games, night cycling, swimming, drinking and getting some people drunk certainly sound very good to me.
I'm sure we'll have another session of heart-to-heart talk, maybe with people crying this time round.
But no matter what, I know for sure, I'll enjoy myself very much with my loves.

It can take years to forget about someone,
but it can take all of eternity to forget about
the impact they made on your life.

jinyiiiiiiii

2008-03-08T03:26:00.002+08:00

At that very second, all that was in my mind was you.
If I was gone for good, will you remember me?

I'll be waiting for you.

you

2008-03-06T18:40:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a pretty tiring day for me.
Slept at 3-ish in the morning, woke up at 11 with a headache.
Decided that I needed some food, microwaved my mini pancakes. Lied on the sofa till it's almost 12 PM.
Was supposed to meet The Usuals (KK, Ian, Nam and Muffin) at 1 PM, so I was late. Only reached Kallang Leisure Park at like 1.30 PM.
Ice skating was fun (and funny). But lots of injuries too. Haha. Muffin fell sooooo many times, which explains her bruises. Gave up soon after that pair of skating shoes had given me red and broken skin. And even till now, my ankle bones are still hurting. ): Goodness.
Had lunch at KFC then we headed to the bowling alley.
Played 2 games without Nam because that rich guy was cashless and tired. Haha. Oh, he's in States now. How cool.
And guess what? They're still laughing at the way I bowl, and I've no idea what's it that is so funny/ weird. Haha. But anyway, I broke my right thumb's nail. So now, I've ugly and un-maniure-able nails. Damnit. Annoying shit. ):
Bishi-Bashi and Daytona before bus-ing down to town.
Oh oh, and I got new colour contacts. (:
KK and I were craving for BBT which stands for bubble tea. Haha. Walked around Far East and Muffin got her friend a tee shirt for her birthday.
Was supposed to meet Hao Jun for dinner then Ladies night, but that poor guy msg-ed me and told me that he's stuck in camp and couldn't make it, so everything's cancelled. Then Marcel told me he's going, so I decided to join him and his friend. (:
So, Ian was being very lazy (like all guys are when it comes to shopping/ window shopping) and wanted to sit down somewhere to have a drink. Ended up at Long John Silver where Muffin reminded us that we could go take neoprints. Hahaha. You should haven seen the guys' faces. Hilarious please. :D
Walked over to Cineleisure, took neoprints, and my baby aka PSP dropped for the first time. Thank God it's okay and there's no scratches whatsoever.
Bumped into Wan Yoong and Himbo. (: He claims that his hair's longER. But seriously, I didn't realised at all. Haha.
Had Fried Oyster at Kopitiam at Youth Park. Then Muffin accompanied me to Cineleisure's toilet to change and get ready for Zouk.
Bus-ed down and met Marcel at 10-ish. Tickets were all sold out. But thank God, the bouncer I know was there. So he signed Marcel and his friend (I can't remember his name) in for free. (: How nice, right. (:
Drank with Marcel opposite Zouk before his friend came, so I didn't spend a cent on drinks. Yay. Haha. Bumped into IITSC people when I was at Mambo (because Marcel made so much noise, we had no choice but to go with him). There're at least 10 of them. And it's so cute to see them doing the actions. Haha. :D
Phutured and I saw Raymond. That guy's enlisting next Saturday. I bet he's gonna party till he drops. Tsk tsk.
Left at 3-ish and cabbed home with Yuan Long and his friend.
Showered, played with my baby for a while then slept.

Woke up at almost 2 in the afternoon.
Viwawa-ed, Friendster hopped, Facebook-ed, blog hopped, IM-ed with friends the entire day away.
Goodness, I need to get myself a job real soon. I'm so so so bored and broke already. ):

Okay, I'll upload the photos soon.
Promise promise. (:

It was you who made me forget all I've known
Everytime I looked into your eyes.
And it was me who decided to give up my heart & run away.
Today is gone, tomorrow's mine
But I'm still alone.
I'm still alone without you.

1B04

2008-03-04T14:16:00.004+08:00

Main focus is on KK. HAHAHA. :D
Please don't kill me, KK. I've nothing to do at home. You can't blame me. :D
But seriously, what were you doing? Haha, silly boy.

And this's so funny. HAHAHA.
We all look like frogs. :DD

LOVE YOU, THE USUALS.
SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW! (:

In our dreams we can be complete again.

2008-03-04T00:42:00.005+08:00

In our dreams we can be complete again.

1b04

2008-03-03T14:06:00.002+08:00

And finally, photos taken on the last day of school.
Heh.

Last Day of Year 1

Goodness, I'm gonna miss The Usuals real bad. ):
I love you darlings. And never will I forget you lovely people.

exams over

2008-02-29T16:33:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! (:

& I'm emotionally overwhelmed as memories come flooding back at this very second.

cny

2008-02-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY! (:

):):):):):

2008-02-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

What can be worse than this?
Nothing.

shawnnnnnnn ):

2008-02-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

I guess no words can describe what I'm going through now.
But it hurts so bad.

shawnnnnn

2008-01-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

Four of my goldfishes died.
FOUR. ):

I get the point that I should move on,
but we both know that I'm not that strong,
and I miss the lips that made me fly.
<3

shawnnnnn

2008-01-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to see that smile of yours.
And maybe, I'll fall for you all over again.
Yes, I know I will.

You're such love. (:

The Candy Heart You Should Give Is:

To: Superman
From: Xinyi

What Candy Heart Should You Give?

shawnnnnnnn

2008-01-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

Retail therapy works.
At least, it keeps my mind off you for that little while.

I'm still thinking of you, baby.

shawnnnnn ):

2008-01-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Baby, I love you.
And I'll wait.
For another moment like then.
For you to tell me one more time that you're mine always.

shawnnnnnnn ):

2008-01-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

No rewinds, no second time.
No, I won't break, I won't waste everything
you've left behind.
Even if it's just memories.

And this time, you really pushed me away.
Nevertheless, I still love you.

):

2008-01-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

Never make someone your priority
when you are only his option.

Wow, I'm enlightened.

for a moment like this

2008-01-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe its happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Thank you baby. (:
Love you muchosssss.

shawnnnnn

2008-01-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

Baby, I thank God for you.
And I'll never forget today.

The way you looked at me,
The way you smiled at me,
The way you touched me,
The way you held me,
The way you hugged me,
The way you smelled me,
The way you kissed me,
The way you made me smile,
And the way you told me you're mine always.

I love you. <3

):

2008-01-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

Ohmyfuck.

shawnnnnnnnnn

2008-01-01T19:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! (:

Every time I lose hope for you,
There you are again. Always there.

shawnnnnnn

2007-12-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

He has the most adorable eyes you could ever fall for
& the cutest smile that takes your breath away.
He has the ability to make you laugh every time he speaks
& whenever you look into his eyes it's so hard to look away. <3

shawnnnnnn

2007-12-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

Please don't push me away now.

And you did. ):

shawnnnnnnnn and christmassss

2007-12-28T19:34:00.000+08:00

Christmas Eve-
Went over to Shi Jie's in the morning to bake brownie. Send her to work then met Himbo. Bumped into Kelvin and Jasper at the interchange. They bought 2 Mr Bean bears and were acting like some kids. It's so embarrassing but yet, cute. Haha.
Himbo went to get his PS3 and according to Kelvin, he spent close to a thousand bucks on it. Oh my.
Went over to Himbo's to do Shawn's present. Napped while that vain guy was getting ready.
Oh, and Angel (Himbo's dog) is really cute.
Cabbed down to Shi Jie's after she went back to shower after work, and we picked Christopher up on the way.
Met Shawn at Meridian to exchange presents. (:
Walked down to Somerset, tried looking for places to have dinner but everywhere was full. So, we bus-ed down to Holland Village, where Shi Jie's aunt stays for dinner. After dinner, we cabbed down to Esplanade, thinking there's fireworks, all thanks to our dearest Bimbo. Haha.
Walked down to Clarke Quay. Drank and all. Pub hopped when the one we're at closed.
Cabbed home after that.

Christmas-
Dinner at Himbo's place with Shi Jie and Christopher.
Used his laptop in the living room while Shi Jie watched her animation in Himbo's room with Himbo writing Christmas cards.
Caesar's talking to me on msn and guess what? Christopher knows Caesar too. How cool. Haha.
Left Himbo's at 10-ish and he accompanied Shi Jie and I to the bus stop. In the end, he decided to send me home. Thank you, Himbo. (:

Second Day of Christmas-
Partied.
And the post-party was a drama which involves 2 girls getting wasted, 1 of them had lips turning blue and started foaming and a trip to the Singapore General Hospital.
It's almost the scariest so far.

Third Day of Christmas-
Slept all the way to 6-ish. Went for Bak Kut Teh with Lyn. Lee Yujia dropped by to pass me my things which were all at her place.
Bus-ed home and the ride was longer than an hour. Bah.

Forth Day of Christmas-
Stayed in the entire day.
Anyway, congrats, Shi Jie! You passed your Basic Theory. We shall go celebrate! YAYYYYY. (:

I'll upload the photos once Shi Jie send them to me. And that's after she takes her camera back from me. Heh.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRESENTS! (:(:(:
I love Stripey (soft toy monkey from Shawn),
I love Sunny (sunflower from Shawn and Shaan),
I love my Tinkerbell Vintage Tee from NUM (from Shi Jie),
I love the Tinkerbell puzzle (from Himbo),
I love the boxes of chocolates, the cards and the sms-es I got.
ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU! ♥

I love you, Lover Boy.
And I'm gonna wait for you.

merry christmas

2007-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! (:
Much loveeeee.

shawnnnnnnnnnn and christmas

2007-12-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

Swan Lake by SDT wasn't exactly good. In fact, it's a quite boring. And it so didn't help when both Shi Jie and I slept at 5-ish in the morning. Uh hur, we almost fell asleep.

Makansutra after that. We shared Fried Hokkien Mee and Fried Oyster. FATSSSSS. Oh my.

A mosquito kissed my right cheek.
And it's sooooo itchy. Eeks. ):
Okay, that's beside the point.

OH, Momo said he almost forgot how I looked like till he saw my blog.
What a friend. ):
Okay, that's beside the point too.

Now, now, the point is..
IT'S LESS THAN A DAY TO CHRISTMASSSSS!
YAYYYYY. (:(:(:

It's true.
It's really all about you.

shawnnnnnnn

2007-12-22T21:52:00.001+08:00

shawnnnnnnnnn and romantic princess and week's update

2007-12-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

Yay, just finished Romantic Princess.
Go watch, go watch. It's so funny and nice. And sweettttt! (:

Anyway, this week's been pretty much well spent, with the dancers, of course.

Monday-
Lyn and I went for Comtemporary dance class. Then met Shi Jie for Kenny Roger's at Marina Square. Bought Mok's birthday present too. Cindy and Rebecca met us after that.

Tuesday-
Town with Lyn and Mel then back to Lyn's to nap and change. Met Cindy, Veekay and Keisha for dinner at Thai Express at Plaza Singapore. After dinner, we walked to Martini Firm where Mok's 18th birthday party was held.

Wednesday-
Met Shi Jie, Lee Yujia and Jun at Far East then we bused down to Zouk. Bumped into Wei Ren in the queue and after queueing for 50 minutes, both Phuture and Zouk were full house. But Stephen bought 4 jugs of Long Island Tea and he's with only 1 friend. So I had to go in to help him finish the drinks. Which means, each of us drank more than 1 jug of Long Island Tea. And trust me, 3 of us were way high. After that, we tried Powerhouse and Double O which were full house too. So we ended up at Butter Factory which was a pretty nice place. And Wei Ren treated me a Flaming Lamborghini. Just imagine how much I drank. Oh my.

Thursday-
Came home from Lyn's and stayed in the entire day.

Friday-
Met Shi Jie and Stephen in town. Dinner, shopped and all.
Oh, guess what? Shi Jie bought me the red Tinkerbell Vintage Tee from NUM for Christmas! (:(:(:

Not forgetting that Stephen's being real nice. Thank you, Himbo. I love you. (:
Shi Jie, Lee Yujia, Jun, Lyn, Manda and Cindy tooooo! I LOVE YOUUUUU MUCHO! (:

Some random photos.

Lee Yujia, Manda and I at Zouk last Friday.

Lyn and I napping at her place. Yes, that's her mirrors.

Veeks and I at Thai Express.

Lyn and I at Martini Firm.

Me at Lyn's before heading to Zouk on Wednesday.

Stephen and I at Butter Factory.

shawnnnnnnnn

2007-12-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

Boy, do you know every little thing you do, make me smile myself silly?

shawnnnnnn

2007-12-17T05:06:00.000+08:00

So close, but still
So far..

shawnnnnn

2007-12-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

So I've been told
at the mention of your name
my eyes glaze over in a second.
So I don't know why you're waiting.
Boy, make me yours.

shawnnnnnnnn

2007-12-16T03:56:00.000+08:00

Wish I could see you right now.
I really miss you quite terribly.

<3

shawnnnnnn and christmas list

2007-12-14T10:53:00.000+08:00

Things I want for Christmas

~~♥ Sony Cyber-shot DSC T70~~
♥ DS Lite
♥ iPod In-Ear Headphones
♥ NUM Party Tank
~~♥ NUM Tinkerbell Vintage Tee~~
♥ Havaianas Slim Season collection (White/ Red) with TukyTuky
♥ April 77 Zebra-print Skinny Jeans
♥ Guess Rhinestone 'G' Buckle Belt
♥ Mister Lover Boy

Today is the start of my holiday. Yay-ness. (:
Start asking me out! I need to do Christmas shopping!
Anyone, anyone? Sms/ call me okay! :D

Alright, I got to go shower and get ready now.
I'll be back with photos! I promise.

Oh yes, Lee Yujia is clubbing with me tonight!
It's been sooooo long since we last clubbed together. Wheeeee! (:

I really want to see you soon.

shawnnnnnn

2007-12-13T14:00:00.000+08:00

Yes, I gave Business Accounting 2 paper a miss.
My tummy is seriously not very nice to me. Bah. ):

Guess what?
Tomorrow's the last paper! Hooray! (:(:(:
And 2 weeks of holiday is waiting for meeeee!
So, start asking me out! :D

Every night I find myself lying in bed, reliving and remembering every glance you gave me and every word you have said.

shawnnnnnnnnn

2007-12-13T13:44:00.000+08:00

The signal is subtle.
We pass just close enough to touch,
no questions, no answers.

shawnnnnnnnn and stats and acc and diarrhoea and ending

2007-12-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

I screwed my Business Statistics paper up.
Badly. Very, very badly.
):):):

Alright, 3 down, 2 more to go.
Business Accounting 2 paper is tomorrow and Marketing Fundamentals paper is on Friday.

Bah. I'm having diarrhoea.
I've been to the toilet at least 6 times before I went to see the doctor. Yes, it's that bad, and no, I don't know what caused it. But probably, it's the half of carton of milk I drank in the afternoon.
So I'll on MC tomorrow IF my tummy still decide to be mean to me.

On a higher note, Friday is less than 2 days away. In other words, the holiday is almost here! Wheeeee! (:

On Friday, I'm be catching the live show at Raffles City with Shi Jie (Bimbo) and Stephen (Himbo). I'm so sure I'll have a great time laughing (at the Bimbo and Himbo). Haha. :DD
Camwhoring session, yes, Shi Jie?
Then I'll be heading to Zouk with Rahhhrahhhaojun.

Now, I can't wait for the last 2 papers to be over!
Hurhur, quick quick quick! :D

And and and, in a week's time, it's ladies' night with the dancers. Yay-ness. (:

You have made me realize its possible to have permanent butterflies.

shawnnnnnnnnn and ob and stats

2007-12-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

One word for OB paper, BAD. ):
Goodbye to an A, and maybe even a B+.
Oh wells, it's over. Nothing much I can do now. Bah.

At least, that means 2 down and 3 more to go.

Business Statistics tomorrow!
Hopefully it doesn't KO me like how OB did.

I miss you, Lover Boy.

shawnnnnnnn

2007-12-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

Faith sees what the eyes cannot. (:

Organisational behaviour is seriously killing my brain cells. Every single one of them.
Bah. ):

<3

shawnnnnnnn

2007-12-10T18:53:00.000+08:00

Macroeconomics paper is over.
It's a pretty easy paper.
Thank God. (:

1 down, 4 more to go.

And Organisational Behaviour is tomorrow.
Pray for me!

If there's someone you really want to be with, he's worth waiting for.

Lover Boy, I'm waiting.
But do you even know that it's you I'm waiting for?

shawnnnnnnnn

2007-12-09T02:33:00.000+08:00

The words you said, are just replaying in my mind. (:

You just don't know how much you mean to me, Lover Boy.

shawnnnnnnnnn and horoscope

2007-12-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line
Now it is time you slowed down forward momentum. Let others pursue you today.

In Detail
Living on the fast track can be exciting and rewarding, but right about now it is time you slowed down your forward momentum. You can wait a few days to return those phone calls or emails -- why look so eager? Let the other people involved show their willingness to put forth some effort. You should be courted and pursued right now, not the other way around. You need to be reminded that you are a prize that is worth winning -- and working for.

Oh Lord, let everything be in Your time. (:

I'm waiting.

shawnnnnnnnnnn and mid sem and zouk

2007-12-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

I've exactly 2 days to finish up my Macroeconomics.
How on earth am I gonna do it.

But in less than just a week's time, it's the term break.
I'm so looking forward to it.
So before I enjoy myself, I'd better study harder for my mid-sem test.

Anyway, Lyn and Shi Jie promised me ladies' night on 19th already. Yay.
So Lee Yujia, Jun, Amanda, Veekay, Keisha and Kris, make yourself free for me, okay? Heh.
Now, it's what I call motivation. :D

18 more days to Christmas. (:

I miss you, Lover Boy.

shawnnnnnnn and jap presentation

2007-12-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LEGAL 18TH, LEE YUJIA! (:(:(:
I ♥ YOU, DARLING!

Japanese presentation is tomorrow and I'm not at all ready.
How wonderful does that sound? Not great, I know. Oh wells.
Sumo, sumo, sumo. You're giving me a real hard time now. Please be nice to me. Please?

The dancers just called. They're heading to MOS tonight.
I really want to leave the house right now to join them, but I can't. And this feeling sucks so bad. It's not that I love MOS or I really feel like clubbing tonight. I just miss the dancers so fucking much, I want to have them around all at one time.
I know it sounds quite wrong. Just fuck it, alright?

Maybe, I should just give you up.

Tears are words the heart can't express.

shawnnnnnnnn and a little update

2007-12-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

Just a little update.

Mid-sem test is in less than a week's time. Boo.
But my mind/ heart/ soul/ body/ whatever isn't exactly cooperating with me. And I'm not even a bit motivated to study. Oh wells.
This's bad. My grades are gonna suffer badly. ):

However, on a higher note, most things have been going on quite well for me. (:
I'm happy with my life now.
And I really hope this time, for once, good things don't come to an end.

Shawn's been real nice and sweet. (:

If you smile when no one else is around, you really mean it.

shawnnnnnnn

2007-12-02T01:51:00.000+08:00

Happiness is:
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20-pound note in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Eye contact with a hot member of the opposite sex.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful/good looking.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!).
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

shawnnnnnnn and enchanted

2007-12-02T00:35:00.000+08:00

It's so cute. So nice. And so sweet. Heh. (:(:(:
Go watch it! It's really worth every single cent of yours!

So close

You're in my arms
And all the world is gone
The music playing on
For only two
So close togehter

And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting
Waiting here with you
And now, forever, I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching
That famous happy and
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Now you're beside me
And look how far we've come
So far
We are
So close...

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We're so close to reaching
That famous hapyp end
Almost believing
This one's not pretend
Let's go on dreaming
Though we know we are
So close
So close, and still
So far...

Love needs no map, for it can find it's way blindfolded.

shawnnnnnnn and photos

2007-11-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, I've uploaded the photos! (:

Auntie Doris's Wedding

Zoo!

I'm the type of girl that will put my head on your shoulder,
and tell you it's because I'm tired.
But I'm really doing it to be closer to you.

shawnnnnnnn

2007-11-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

Your worst battle is between
what you know & what you feel.

shawnnnnnnn

2007-11-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

Is it me?
Or is it you?

Hold my hand, again.

shawnnnnnnn

2007-11-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

Oh, this complicated world.

How can anyone be feeling this way?
Hur, Xinyi hur.

shawnnnnnn

2007-11-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

Teeheehee. (:
Smiling myself silly because of you.
♥

personality test

2007-11-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

Where do you prefer to focus your attention? The Extraversion- Introversion scale.
Extraversion
People who prefer Extraversion tend to focus on the outer world of people and external events. They direct their energy and attention outwards and receive energy from external events, experience and interactions.

Where do you take in information, find out about things? The Sensing- Intuition scale.
Intuition
People who prefer Intuition like to take in information by seeing the big picture, focusing on the relationship and connections between facts. They want to grasp patterns and are especially good at seeing new possibilities and different ways of doing things.

Where do you make decisions? The Thinking- Feeling scale.
Feeling
People who prefer to use Feeling in decision making tend to consider what is important to them and to other people. They mentally place themselves in a situation and identify with the people involved so that they can make decisions based on person-centered values. Their goal is harmony and recognition of individuals, and their strengths include understanding, appreciating, and supporting others.

Where do you orient towards the outer world? The Judging- Perceiving scale.
Perceiving
People who prefer to use their Perceiving process in the outer world tend to live in a flexible, sportaneous way, seeking to experience and understand life, rather than control it. Plans and decisions feel confining to them; they prefer to stay open to experience and last- minute options. They enjoy and trust their resoursefulness and ability to adapt to the demands of a situation.

Hello there.
I know I've not been here for a long time.
Oh wells.

Zouk tomorrow, anyone?
Drop me a sms or something if you're going. (:

I miss you quite terribly.

lair of the damned

2007-10-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

Lair of the Damned

ENJOY! (:

Oh yeah,
You want a piece of me.

halloween

2007-10-27T14:27:00.000+08:00

Anddddd, tonight is The Night! :D
I'll be back with truckloads of photos.

Omg, I don't believe how excited I am now.
Teeheehee. (:

Do sms/ call me if you're going too!

I'm yours.

back

2007-10-26T00:45:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating this space here for weeks.

I'm a happy girl today. Wheeeee!
And I got a stalk of blue rose from Momo The Sweet. Teeheehee. (:

Halloween party is on Saturday! YAY.
I can't wait! :D
I'm sure we'd take lots of photos and have a great time. (:

Always know
Cause you make me smile even just for a while

emomomo

2007-10-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm naive to think I deserve to be loved.
And even if I deserve it, it doesn't mean he's going to give it to me.

I'm breaking into millions and millions of pieces, soon.

chalet

2007-10-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Someone said that you’re fading too soon,
Drifting and floating and fading away.

And I'm missing you.
Can you please be back?

I'm really in no mood to blog.
But I know people from my class are dying for the photos. So, photos are up first for you lovely people.

1B04 Chalet

I'm so brave, I'm sure I can walk through all these on my own.
Without you.

wheee

2007-10-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

i'll be back in lets say, a week's time or so, with fucking alot of photos. :D

):

2007-10-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

Forever never seems to be around when it ends.

num!

2007-10-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

caught the dead girl with dennis yesterday, and i swear, it's the worst movie i've seen ever. seriously. it's just a total waste of money. i've no fucking idea what the whole movie is about, yes, even till now. definitely not worth watching.

had crystal jade for dinner. (:
it's been months since i last ate zha jiang la mian and xiao long bao.

stupid dennis just had to tease me about everything i said.
from the la mian to the almond jelly.
EEYER.

ohkay, i shall forgive him since he paid for everything. HAHA.
no lah, he's really nice, other than the teasing part. (:

and today, met eileen and wai yeong in town at 5-ish.
had my first "meal" at pasta mania (i only ate garlie bread and drank soup and coke.).
walked around and all. then wai yeong left.
had dinner at burger king. didn't even finish the burger, fries and coke. oh wells.
bumped into jaylloyd and his friend, raymond, and we went hongkong cafe with them for their dinner.
shirley came and we went subway.
then jaylloyd, raymond and i train-ed together. jaylloyd's really nice. he walked me home. (:

ohkay, tomorrow's ladies' night with eileen, as usual.
and we're going for the cleo fashion show thingy on thursday.

alright, till then.
my gastric problem's being mean to me. :/

OH OH OH, i still think vincent's extremely cute.
HEH. :DD

photos

2007-10-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

Friends from Shangri-La Hotel

ohkay, photos up! (:
p.s. see how gay the guys are. HEH. :DD

oh, some guy on friendster msg-ed me with a subject "sex" saying "hi girl, u look fucking hot. ;)".
such a turn off, please.

on the other hand, dennis's being really sweet. (:

permed my hair on friday.
gonna go back for a change of colour tomorrow.
hurhur.

1B04'S CHALET IS JUST A WEEK AWAY!
OMG, OMG. I CAN'T WAITTTTT!
I MISS YOU ALL. ):

random

2007-09-29T15:21:00.000+08:00

http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html
it's rather accurate. (:

oh, i only got home at 5 in the morning.
and strangely enough, my parents didn't make any noise.
woah.

met eileen, may fen and bryan for dinner at hongkong cafe at cineleisure.
walked around then sat outside cineleisure.
eileen left with her friends for homeclub.
may fen stayed with me.
bought drinks and supper for the guys then cabbed down to cj's house.
watched them play poker the entire night/ morning.
cabbed home.

och later.
omg, i'm scared, please. :/

hurhur, i need to pack my room now.
mom's annoying the hell out of me.
chickennnnn.

horo

2007-09-28T02:03:00.000+08:00

"If you spend too much time thinking about your past mistakes, how can you focus on moving forward? Today, you need to put the boxing gloves away -- because it's time for you to stop beating yourself up! No one remembers the things you did or didn't do, so why on earth should you? It's one thing to learn lessons from errors you've made, but it is quite another to continually punish yourself. This is a fresh day, full of possibility and promise. Don't waste it feeling regret."

why is it so trueeeee? :/
why, why, why.

You could be the one i'll always love.

emo

2007-09-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

i've a sudden urge to blog some emo quotes.
i don't know why, but i feel this tinge of insecurity taking over me. and it doesn't feel good at all.

Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation.
One more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever?
If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days.
And none will outweight the one you wish you had back.

I've got to move on, and be who I am.

I started smiling, cause you were smiling.

Mmaybe it's just an act, maybe you still
do think of me often, in stealing moments,
or at night when you can't fall asleep.
wondering if, i was wondering.

Go ahead, tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running holding your scarred heart in hand.
Its all the same.
And ill take you for who you are if you take me for everything.

I've seen nights without sleep, days without daylight.
These memories I keep, won't keep me warm at night.
The coldest part is the heart that we share.
It's breaking apart and you're not even here to say things will get better.

Maybe that's a blessing in disguise because I doubt anyone would believe what went on.
Thinking back on it now, I wish nothing but the best to you.
And despite everything we've been through, despite the heartache that followed every fight,
and the nights spent sleepless talking to each other under the moonlight -
I hope you'll still be able to mention me with a smile.

Unintended.

ln

2007-09-27T17:01:00.000+08:00

omg, omg.
vincent's like sooooo cute, please. heh. :DD

ladies night yesterday with eileen, jiajia, hui ying and may fen.
eileen got wasted and may fen sent her home in a cab.
so the night was left with the 3 of us.
i'm very sure we had a fucking good time. haha.

oh, there's this girl crying like some bitch outside zouk like she got raped or something.
but i doubt so. most probably only touched or something. and this childish guy friend of hers wanted to beat up the guy(s). like HELLO, do you even know where the fuck you are at?

wan zhen's sending me the photos we took on monday.
will upload as soon as i get everything.
till then. (:

OH YES, chong yi, wan zhen and i are not working anymore. HOHOHO. :DD

oh wells

2007-09-25T14:10:00.000+08:00

and so, friendster says, "Don't overspend today. Remember: in some cases, spending one cent is too much.
HOHOHO, i'm gonna make sure i don't even spend a single sent today. because it's ladies' night with eileen tomorrow. YAYYYYY. (:(:(:

so last wednesday, i went to starfish for an informal group interview for the shangri-la hotel banquet server job with wilson ong. bumped into wilson ong's colleague when he's smoking outside ngee ann city. sat around till wilson ong and his friend had to leave for work.
walked down to cineleisure alone to look for andrew who's working at some games shop. waited for darn long before lim jian came over.
lim jian and i went to fish and co for dinner. shared a seafood platter for two. he's being really nice. haha. peeled the prawns for me. but he said, "if i don't help you, you'll eat meh?" bugger ley, eeyer! :D we couldn't finish the food even though i was fucking hungry.
walked back to the place andrew's working to wait for him to close the shop. then the guys played an hour of game.
wanted to take a bus down to zouk, but in the end, we took a bad down. haha. the 3 of us had in total 2 jugs of bourbon coke and 4 flaming lamborghinis (it's 1-for-1.). went to both phuture and zouk to dance. andrew got super wasted. and he wanted to lie outside, so lim jian and i went back in ourselves. andrew gave me his 2 free drinks, and i had 2 tequila shots. went to phuture to dance. got to know this guy and met melvin. melvin bought me a flaming lamborghini. whee. haha. then after the party, melvin drove us to somewhere at rivervalley for supper. cabbed back to lim jian's after that. tried to sleep and all. but the annoying eee noise just didn't help at all. drank unboiled water and felt fucking uncomfortable after that. cabbed home in the morning. and i puked. motion sickness + bloated tummy = puke!

i can't remember what i did on thursday. but i think i stayed at home the entire day.

and friday, saturday and sunday was spent working.
fucking tiring and scary. ):
OMG.
i really have no idea if i still wanna continue working there.
but on a higher note, i've met a group of new friends that i can clique with. (:

weddings are really sweet! (:(:(:
i almost cried when the videos were played, when the couple walked in, when they're having their speech. it just touched me.
(for your infomation, i was working. haha.)

met up with my colleagues yesterday to collect our pay.
bus-ed back to town for dinner at nydc.
had a good laugh. haha. if you wanna know why, check the blog a few days later for the photos. (wan zhen's yet to send them to me.)
then it's mind's cafe with wan zhen and her friends.
train-ed home with her after that.

i can't wait for tomorrowwwww! (:
eileen, we'll have a good time.
don't think about it anymore

AND BITCH, I THINK YOU CAN TRY FUCKING HARDER TO BE NICER TO OUR DEAREST EILEEN.
YOU'RE BEING A TOTAL SHAME. EVEN HE SAID SO. HA.

Thanks for telling me you miss me. I miss you too.

working tomorrow

2007-09-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

i'm way to tired to blog.
after the weekends, maybe.

and i can't tie a knot with the cherry stalk using my tongue.
so annoying. eeyer. :/

...

2007-09-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

will update after tomorrow's ladies night with eileen and her friends.
fucking tired now.
goodnight.

foooood

2007-09-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

chicken that goes OINK, OINK!
HAHAHA. :DD

mom and dad are sick. food poisoning, maybe?

dragged my very lazy self out of bed at 11.30 a.m. when i was supposed to wake up at 11 a.m. got ready and all then train-ed down to novena to meet the ian, kk and nam.
we're supposed to meet at 1 p.m. but i was late by around 38 minutes. heh.
took a bus down to the bak kut teh place. and kk pointed out that the signboard outside the shop says, "BAR KU THE". HAHAHA. :DD it's like the third time i've been there and i didn't know.
we shared 2 bowls of bak kut teh and a plate of pig trotter. kk didn't drink much of the soup so i practically drank TWO bowls of soup. omg, i want moreeeee! :DD IT'S STILL SO FUCKING GOOD, PLEASE.
after lunch, we bus-ed down to chinatown for dessert. we had mango with pamelo and sago, carrot cake, black sesame paste and walnut paste. HOHOHO. yummyyyyy! (:
home sweet home after that. hola.

sentosa with eileen and wilson ong ~~tomorrow~~/ later.
i'd better turn in early.
goodnight, world.

You cant undo somethings that's happened; you cant take back a word that's already been said out loud. You'll think about me and wish that you had been able to talk me out of this. You'll try to figure out what would have been the one right thing to say, to do. I guess I should tell you, Don't blame yourself; this isn't your fault, but that would be a lie. We both know that I didnt get here by myself.

fat fat

2007-09-17T01:18:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna put on like 758148612192kg! ):):):
bloody hell.

ohkay, i'll tell you why but you'd probably start laughing and say, "yea, you fucking deserve it." oh wells, maybe i do.

last night, i called the mcdonald's delivery at 11.34 p.m. after complaining to mom that i'm hungry. the food came at 12 a.m.
in other words, i had a fillet o fish burger, fries and coke at fucking 12 in the morning. at the time, jinyi's msg-ing me, so i told him that i'm having supper. and he's like, "you'd better not sleep after eating, if not, shou shou (skinny) also will become pang pang (fat)." (for your information, i always call him pang pang, so i insist he's just getting back at me.) so being the very good girl, like i always am, i didn't sleep until 3 plus 4 in the morning, hoping that i won't put on sooooo much weight from that fucking sinful meal.

today, i had fried bee hoon/ mee/ kway teow with fried fillet and egg for brunch. yes, everything's fried! ohmyfuck. then i had pepper lunch, again, for dinner. and i just cooked myself a delicious bowl of kimchi ramen with egg (maggie mee, of course. all i did was to dump everything in the bowl and in it went into the microwave, then DANG DANG! YUMMY!). but take a look at the time. fuck.

not forgetting, i've been snacking like my parents own the entire ntuc or something. :/

i should seriously start watching my diet and sleeping before 12 midnight. if not, i can really bang my head against the wall and die.
i'm living a really really unhealthy lifestyle this boring holiday. RAHHHHH. ):

in less than 12 hours' time, i'm seeing my loves for bak kut teh! (yes, i'm contridicting myself and yes, i'm still addicted.)
meeting lynette too! (:

aah, i feel sleepy already.
but no, i just ate, i can't sleep so soon.
oh no, oh no.

You give me feelings I simply adore.

mushroom and ham baked rice

2007-09-15T02:52:00.000+08:00

pepper lunch with willy/ interview at home club with joey/ nydc with eileen/ drinking at home club with eileen.

that pretty much ended my friday with a curfew of 12 a.m (and me only returning home at 1 a.m. hoho.).

eileen's 18th

2007-09-13T14:25:00.000+08:00

the fucking annoying EEEEE sound has been ringing in my ears since i stepped out of zouk and it's getting on my nerves. UGH.

(stupid facebook, having some problem. i wanna pet other pets lahhhhh. whines.)

so yesterday afternoon was spent recovering from the day before's drinking session. bus-ed down to tampines to meet eileen then we bus-ed down to far east for dinner.
went to get calamari from british take away, and that's where we saw james and his girlfriend. and james just had to say "I SAW YOU ON HEY GORGEOUS!" as he's walking towards us, passing like 83404749 people. i was so terribly embarrassed, so i hid behind a pillar so those people couldn't see me. talked for a while then eileen and i went to subway. wanted to eat the meatball, but they didn't have it anymore. so i didn't get anything from there.
after eating, eileen wanted wanted to shop. so our first station was this fashion, and it's also the last. because the rest of ophix was getting ready at the side and after we stepped out, they sang a birthday song like super loudly. wheeeee. so fun. then we sat around to rahrahhhhh. had a great time laughing and all.
ck and jay lloyd met us after ck ended work. walked over to the mcdonald's at shaw house. did stupid things (as usual) and laughed like crazy. left for zouk after ck changed.
zouk was like fucking packed, with army boys. i'm serious. every 5 guys, 3 of them are botak. omg. :/ and the queue was fucking long, but luckily we got in quite fast. however, the bouncer took quite some time to actually realise eileen is already legal and yesterday was her birthday. so after she stepped in, the bouncer wished her happy birthday. how nice, right? (by the way, zouk bouncers are like HOT, please. omg! :D)
so when i was getting my hand chopped (the stamp!), one of the bouncers recognised me and was like, "AREN'T YOU YOU YOU THE HEY GORGEOUS GIRL?" then i turned around, stunned then quickly denied. omg, omg, omg.
went to put our bags at the counter at the second level. saw darryl (eileen's friend). then we went phuture to drink. had 1 tequille shot, 1 vodka on the rock and 1 flaming lamborghini. ck and i treated eileen a drink. went to dance and all. eileen saw this guy that she thinks is cute. then i went to ask his friend for his name. edmund, it is. but eileen's like so embarrassed. i bet if it's not so dark, we'll be able to see how red she was. then went to drink another 2 tequille shots. went back to the dance floor. ck went outside leaving us on our own. after a while, eileen spotted another guy that's her type. then there's this guy that came way too near me, i told eileen, then we walked away.
went outside to find ck and he's like sitting alone at some corner with his head down. didn't disturb him because he looked almost dead. so we walked down to somewhere near the parking area and sat by the road. waited till around 2 a.m. then we went in again. and the bouncers were like HEY GORGEOUS, HEY GORGEOUS. so embarrassing. then one of them was like saying he wants my autograph and wants me to dance ballet for him. omg. and guess what, HE GAVE ME AND EILEEN THE FORMS FOR THE VIP CARD! (:(:(: YAYYYYY. fucking happy lah! second birthday present from me to her. :D
went back to phuture. was walking then a fight started. bottles, jugs, cups flying around. fucking scary. then eileen and i pushed our way back, while people pushed their way in to see what happened. singaporeans arh, really kaypo ley.
so eileen and i tried to go into the fucking packed dancefloor and ended up being surrounded by a group of guys. and there's this guy who's fucking weird. he's like singing to us. looked so retarded can.
then eileen saw edmund. and as we danced, they came closer, then his friend gave me edmund's number. she's so happy lah! third birthday present from me to her. :D
ck had to leave first because he's working today. and because we left our baggage tags with him, we've to go get it from him. but before we left the dancefloor, a guy asked for my number. i just punched my number without looking and left.
and everytime i walked pass the bouncers, they'd be like HEY GORGEOUS! then eileen and i were like smile smile smile. but i don't mind smiling at them, i mean they're like so darn fucking hot, please! heh. :D
went back to phuture to join edmund and friends. made new friends and all. yada yada yada.
the guys went out to smoke, then two of us were like dancing with each other when we saw that both the guy that came to near to me and the one that sang to us were just behind us. so we left not long after that.
went to collect our bags then met the guys outside for supper.
i swear they're super funny! haha.

eileen and i waited till 6. then when we wanted to cab, there's no cabs. zzz.
got a cab at like 6.47 a.m. and eileen got hers just in time before the peak hour surcharge.
reached home, bathed, then slept all the way till 1 plus 2 in the afternoon.

i had a great time yesterday.
i'm sure eileen enjoyed her 18th birthday!
once again, happy legal 18, darling! (:

for photos, click HERE.

so, i got my results back.
not very happy with it. but it's guess it's that bad.
got gpa of 3.1.
oh wells..
BUT!
ian and nam promised me bak kut teh on monday to cheer me up a little.
so YAY! something to look forward to. (:

uploaded

2007-09-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

hello, the purple lights photos are up.
click on the link there! -points at the purple lights link under photos-

it's ladies night later with eileen! (:

wheeeeee

2007-09-12T01:45:00.000+08:00

flaming lamborghini + (pronounced as) yaygen bomb + half cup of graveyard = FUCKING HIGH!
:DD

met joey and wilson at ikea then we cabbed down to town for dinch at hongkong cafe at cineleisure. shopping around town after 28319578357 months of not stepping in. i wanted this red minidress from mango, but the smallest size is like s, and it's fucking loose for me. so in the end, i didn't get a single shit. willy wanted to get the blue skinnies from mango. HAHA. but he didn't dare to try, so joey and i told him that topman's also selling the same thing. however, he insisted that he wants the ladies' cutting. HAHAHA. and obviously, he didn't get his skinnies, but he got a green belt instead. (oh, i forgot to say wilson ong's rich recently. HOHO. :D)
ate fried mars bars and now, i'm craving for fried calamari and bak kut teh. TEEHEEHEE.
trained down to homeclub where i tried all those drinks and got myself fucking high. :DD

wilson ong's darn unlucky today.
he lost his keys, the cab we took didn't have the machine which allows us to pay by nets and he didn't have cash on him, the atm machine was not in order, he forgot to ask for the receipt (which means he can't claim), joey didn't answer his phone, so wilson ong had to call his house.
POOR WILSON ONG.

ohkay, so joey and i are going for interview at homeclub this friday.
hopefully, i get the job. at least i can earn some extra pocket money.
HOLA. (:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, EILEEN! (:

I LOVE YOU!

AND YAY, FINALLY LEGAL!

HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR SPECIAL DAY TODAY!

SEE YOU LATERRRRR!

LOVEEEEE.

hey gorgeous

2007-09-11T02:00:00.000+08:00

facebook, facebook, facebook. :D

so tomorrow will be spent visiting ikea to get computer chair, hk cafe, shopping, chilling, blahblahblah with willy and joey. i hope eileen will join us after school.
at least i'm gonna get my ass out of the house and not waste my precious holidays away.

HOHO, which concludes that i definitely need a job.

AAHHHHH!
stop msg-ing/ im-ing/ calling me to tell me you saw me on teevee.
i know, i know, i know, and i'm terribly embarrassed.
omg.

If today was perfect, there would be no need for tomorrow.

ftt :/

2007-09-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

OMF, 100 more pages to go.
maybe i'm not gonna sleep tonight.
hola.

my dear friend,

i promise i'll always be there for you.

xoxo.

Why don't we hit the rewind button and pause at our favourite part?

hsm2

2007-09-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

ftt tomorrow.
so screwed. :/

ON A HIGHER NOTE, HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 IS ON TEEVEE LATERRRRR!
YAYYYYY. (:

I hate Hellos, because Goodbyes will catch up soon after.

zzz

2007-09-08T16:58:00.000+08:00

why why love the whole afternoon before meeting eileen and willy at novena for bak kut teh. train-ed to town to meet jay lloyd. walked around aimlessly then finally found some random place in paragon to sit down while waiting for ck to finish work (movie was cancelled but non of us was told). walked to somerset mrt to meet lance then walked over to purple lights to drink. ck and jay lloyd left after rahrahhhhh-ing for a while. willy, lance, eileen and i played games and we all got fucking high. especially willy. fucking funny! HAHAHA. :DD
yada yada yada.
cabbed home with lance at 3 in the morning. slept at 5 a.m after watching a bit of why why love.

woke up at 4 p.m.
and i'm having a hangover.
fuck, fuck, fuck. :/

Ha, Who Am I Kidding?

explanation

2007-09-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you, doesn't need it,
and the person who dislikes you, won't believe it.

And I chose not to explain to you.

i need a job

2007-09-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

I NEED A FREAKING JOB!

wang li hong

2007-09-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

OMG, HE'S FUCKING HOT! :DD

misunderstood

2007-09-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

hello there,
do you know you misunderstood me?
but you know what? it doesn't matter anymore.

don't tell me i meant something to you,
because i don't mean anything to you anymore.

(:(:

2007-09-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

I HAD BAK KUT TEH FOR BRUNCH!
XINYI'S A FUCKING HAPPY GIRL NOW!
IT'S SOOOOO YUMMYYYYY!
I'M GONNA GO BACK FOR MORE SOME DAY SOON, I SWEAR!
WHEEEEE! (:(:(:

now, i'm comtemplating if i should go phuture later.
should i, or should i not?
hmm..

i feel like taking a nap first though.
alright, think about it again later.

and for a few moments,
i ACTUALLY felt like i meant
something to someone..

bak kut teh

2007-09-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

bak kut teh with lee yujia tomorrow.
OMG, I CAN'T WAIT! :DD

i'm hungry, again. :/
shall go munch on the donuts mom bought from donut factory today.
heh heh heh. :D

i'm definitely growing sideway.
in other words, fat. ):
BUT! i'm not complaining anymore (or at least not to ian).
because food makes me fucking happy! HEH. (:

horoscope

2007-09-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to believe in this.

"This could be an emotional day, but it is not one in which you won't be able to control your emotions. So remember that when you feel your temper rising, your heart bruising, or an inappropriate giggle bubbling up inside of you. You can stop things from getting uncomfortable by simply taking a step back, letting yourself breathe, and taking your pulse -- both literally and figuratively. Just because you are feeling some confusing thoughts does not mean you should be afraid of your emotions."

baby fluffernutter

2008-03-22T16:31:00.002+08:00 When everything doesn't mean anything anymore.

first day

2008-03-16T03:07:00.000+08:00 Me without youIs like Sneakers without lacesGeeks without BracesAsentencewithoutspaces

tomorrowwwwwww

2008-03-12T22:10:00.002+08:00 Well, I'm back.Update later.At that moment, my world collapsed.

gg done

gonna be away

jinyiiiiiiii

you

1B04

In our dreams we can be complete again.

1b04

exams over

cny

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lair of the damned

halloween

back

emomomo

chalet

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photos

random

horo

emo

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oh wells

working tomorrow

...

foooood

fat fat

mushroom and ham baked rice

eileen's 18th

uploaded

wheeeeee

2008-03-22T16:31:00.002+08:00
When everything doesn't mean anything anymore.

2008-03-16T03:07:00.000+08:00
Me without you
Is like Sneakers without laces
Geeks without Braces
Asentencewithoutspaces

2008-03-12T22:10:00.002+08:00
Well, I'm back.
Update later.

At that moment, my world collapsed.